Falling in love again
Amy April 15th, 2009
Love is not a static emotion. If it is, then most likely it is not love. Love ebbs and flows and grows as people grow together.
This morning as I was holding Jackson and he was jumping up and down and looking at me with the sweetest smile, I felt my love for him blossoming into something greater and richer. You always think that you can’t possibly love any stronger or deeper until you do.
I have felt this way on numerous occassions watching Michael with the kids. He is so wonderful with them and I sometimes feel overwhelmed with love and emotion for him when I watch him interacting with the boys. To look at this man and to realize that he is the reason for our children being here and to know that our love has culminated in two beautiful generous loving individuals is sometimes almost more than I can bear. I really get the feeling that my heart is going to burst, but it doesn’t. It grows. My love grows. Our love grows. He doesn’t know that I watch him while he works and while he plays and while he loves our kids, but I am and it is in these moments that I feel so blessed and honored to have him in my life.
And Camden is showing me everyday the meaning of generosity and selflessness. We always seem to concentrate on the selfishness of toddlers, the screams of mine, and do it myself. But more often I see Camden sharing with his brother, soothing his cries and his hugs and kisses for Mommy and Daddy and his statements of ” I’m GLAD your home” or “You make me HAPPY” and it is these actions and comments that define his toddlerhood for me. These are his true feelings, not tainted by any obligation he feels or favor he is seeking. He is a good kid… a warm and caring soul… a sweet and loving little boy who brings more joy and happiness and LOVE to my life than I ever imagined.
I am so lucky to have this incredible family and I look forward to more candid moments that cause my heart to stretch and ache and grow. I love all my boys and I thank you!
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Oh I think I’m going to cry. You captured that so perfectly. I know exactly how you feel! We are truly blessed.